Anxiety Christians Have

As christians, we often find something to worry about. (Or be anxious about.) It could be something huge, or something insanely small that's a big deal to us. But when you think about it, there is nothing worth being anxious for except for Christ's return. Philippians 4:6 tells us, "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;" If only we prayed for God to comfort us in our times of worry. We often forget that God knows all anyway, and everything is in His hands and will happen accordingly to His will.

I have struggled with this a lot over the passed year, just with everything. Every night I'm up for atleast an hour after turning my lights out thinking of what I'm gonna do tomorrow or what might happen tomorrow, as if I have control over it anyway. Instead of going to God with it, I worry a lot about what will happen in the near future. I plan ahead to often that I tend to forget that I'm not guaranteed tomorrow. God can take my life whenever He pleases and my life shall happen according to His plan.

I also have a tendency to worry about other people, like my parents. I wonder what my life would be like without them, I can only imagine it'd be dreadful. So, instead of praying for them every day, I worry about them and think about the worse.

What do you worry about? Are you one of those people at church who zone out during the sermon, I am guilty of it also sometimes. Do you worry about the football game that will be on or your favorite show coming on?

If we just pray that God will comfort us during our times of anxiety, He will take the excitement away!

Feeling a Little Worried

What a comfort it is to have a God who cares for us.. There are moments in life that wear us down. We sometimes feel that we are alone, but forget who created us. The passed year was eventful for me. I got to spend a lot of time with my family, but it was also a bad year for me. I lost my PawPaw on June 6, 2009. I watched his last breath leave his body on a hospital bed.
For weeks after he had died, I questioned God, "Why would this happen now?" This brought a lot of pain to my MiMi and I. Why would God do this, and why at this time?... He is God, and He can do it, that's why. Just as He gives life, He can take away.
Lately, I've been thinking about my Dad. His health isn't doing real well, and he doesn't like following the doctor's orders. He's also not saved. He has no idea what could happen. I haven't been the most patient son in the world, and I admit when I have shared the gospel with him, I got emotional, which doesn't help. If only my daddy realized how much Jesus loved him, maybe he would understand. I pray every night that God would give me another opportunity to pour my heart out to him without being disrespectful and emotional about it. I really wish it wasn't so hard for me to talk to him in love, as Christ would. If something were to happen to my daddy today, I would be torn apart. One, for not being the son I should've been. Two, not being an effective spiritual source in his life. And three, my mother would be emotionally disturbed. So right here right now, I give it to God. I pray that He would do His wondrous miracles in my daddy's life tonight that maybe one day when I get to Heaven, I'd be able to see my earthly father again!

I've also been thinking of my MiMi. Although there are no blood connections, we have a love connection. I have a relationship with her that no one else ever will share. Ever since PawPaw Livingston died, it's been tough for us both, but for her more. I worry every night I'm not at her house that something will happen. Her health isn't the best and I know that I need to be there if something does happen. And if something does happen without me there, I don't know if I would ever forgive myself for letting something so awful happen. I pray for her every night and every day, that she will make it through safely and her blood sugars won't exceed their limits. I can't help but think how hard it will be when God takes her home. This is the lady I spend my weekends with, I go to the movies with, I talk to every day on the phone, and I go on trips with. Why would God EVER take her from me?? Because He is God, and He can, that's why. So that His glory still might be shown through her ashes. That one might come to know Him through the life she lived. Maybe that her life was a witness to someone. So right here right now, I give it to God, I pray that He would do His wondrous miracles through my MiMi's life. That when He brings her home, that I would have peace about it, as well as her daughter Tracey and her 5 beautiful grandchildren. That I wouldn't look forward to the days of sadness, but the days beyond this world we live, that I would look forward to the day I see her face again in my Heavenly Father's kingdom.

Lord, I lift this night up to You. You know the feelings in my heart. You have my desires. You hold every tear I have cried. I feel You next to me now and am comforted! You are my God and can do anything You want and I will trust in You all the days of my life and I will not fret over tomorrow, because I have faith that Your will be done!

Dear Mr. Bob,

I can't believe we entered 2010 without you. It has been almost 7 months. While this year has gone REALLY fast, it feels like you have been gone forever. I don't know how we went through the rest of this year without you. Tracey and Tommy, I believe, are still waiting on the OK to move to Charlotte, North Carolina for Tom's promotion. Clara is as beautiful as ever and you would be just as proud of her as your other grandchildren. Me, on the other hand I wouldn't be so sure. Remember that new school we were discussing about me going to? Well, I went and am there now. My grades aren't so great and they haven't progressed very much since the beginning of this school year. Mrs. Betty is preparing the house for sale in the next 5 years or so, it all depends on her retirement deal and if she can get healthcare.

I miss you, alot, alot, alot. We don't have movie night anymore Mrs. Betty and I. We don't go see all those movies that you would have seen. I have never seen Mrs. Betty more torn up than when you passed.

You were a grandfather to me, the grandfather that I never had. If I could rewind time, I would go back and I wouldn't give you lip about anything. I would say, "I love you Pop Livingston, and thanks for being to me what you are." Then I would say, "please don't drink anymore, I know it won't make a difference me telling you what to do, but it might would spare your life a little longer so you can atleast see your new Beautiful granddaughter, Clara.

Me and Mrs. Betty talk about you but not often. But, I do feel me and her are closer than ever before. I have done my best to take care of her for the time you have been gone, but now I can see she won't need me much longer because she is going up to Tracey's an awful lot. I know your dream for her was to move back home to wherever Tracey and Tommy are but I'm not ready for that yet. I just need a little more time.

I love you and miss you and wish I could go back in time and tell you that I love you, that I'm sorry for ever being disrespectful.

We all miss you an awful lot..

Love,

Joshman