God Changed My Life

I went to public school for 10 years of my life (from kindergarden-9th grade). I was the kid that got picked on, I was also the "christian kid". I never really was sociable except with my family and sometimes church, but other than that I haven't ever really "hung" out with friends. I was always the kid that wanted to do the right thing. I was the kid whose parents trusted him. I have had only a few "true" friends in my life, and they are still my friends.

I was the kid that when I was invited somewhere, I always held back for some reason. Why? I don't know, maybe the fear of being picked on. When I began middle school, that's when the friendships that I have really began. That's when all I knew became confusing.

As the years went by I became more and more anti-social. There is one thing I didn't have at the beginning of my middle school/high school experience that I said I had all along. That's Jesus Christ. At the age of 8, I claimed to be a christian and that Jesus was my savior. It wasn't until about 2 years ago when I realized that I wasn't living the christian life. I became enrolled in a bible study that I still go to on Monday nights, and it is truly amazing how far God has brought me. He has taught me to go to Him for everything and He shall answer, maybe not right away but He WILL answer.

When it was made clear to me that I needed to stop trying to live life to please me, I became more alive in the social community. Not nearly as much as I wanted to be, but I began to speak up more and talk to people. That just got me in trouble, I became more of a smart alic and getting in trouble by my authorities. Then God spoke to my heart again to calm me.

I soon became more appreciative for what God has given. Such as this thing called family. Now, when you have a family like mine, it's hard to keep up. But God just showed how blessed I am to have all the connections I have. I soon became less obsessed with wanting friends, and more obsessed with wanting to live the life God wanted me to have.

As the years progressed I began to fall away again, especially when I went to high school I began to say things that surprised me and began getting in trouble more. One day I realized what I had become and I just prayed, I got on my knees and prayed. I realized that I needed to change and change for good. That's my mom had began praying about a better environment for me to be in. That's when Gonzales Baptist Academy came into place.

I began this school scared to death and holding on for dear life. You know what God did though? He gave me knew friends, and new people to connect with. He gave a more friendly environment to begin again and to stay the way He wants me.

Don't doubt the power of God, because that'll get you no where. He will answer your prayers, just not in your timing!

HALF is an understatement

Half is used in many ways. One way is half brother/half sister. Well technically I have 3 half sisters and 2 half brothers. One of those sisters I may add, I have lived with all my life. I didn't know till a couple of years ago that "biologically" we were halves. So what does that mean? Well Our mom has 2 children by 2 people. Whitney, my sister I have lived with forever, her parents are divorced, but mine are still married. Which makes Whitney and I half brother/half sister. But why? Why does it matter? When people ask me about my family I'm like do you really wanna know? When I explain it, they say, "So Whitney is your half sister." I say, "No." And I always get a puzzled look. Whether Whit is my half sister or not, she is still my sister.

Out of all my "brothers" and "sisters", Whit and I are closest. We have been through more together than we have with the others.

So to clear something up, no, me and Whitney are not halves we are wholes. I love my sister so much that she just doesn't know (which I probably wouldn't admit anywhere but here). We could be furious at each other and two seconds later it all be okay, (or sometimes that can be the case). I know I could talk to her about anything and she will give me her honest opinion and not hold back, (trust me, she doesn't hold back). We stick up for each other. We know each others limits, (which I go over sometimes just for the fun of it), and can talk to each other about ANYTHING!

Bottom line, I don't consider me and Whitney halves, she is my whole sister. She doesn't have half her body around me, she has her whole one. I'm glad me and her have the close relationship we have and I hope it lasts.

So this was a random blog and I apologize. But, I was being rampaged about writing another blog. So here it is. But it came from the heart and it wasn't artificial.

In Me

Lyrics in BOLD

Blog not in BOLD

If you asked me to leap
Out of my boat on the crashing waves
If you ask me to go
Preach to a lost world that Jesus saves

I'll go, but I cannot go alone
'Cause I know I'm nothing on my own
But the power of Christ in me makes me strong
Makes me strong
God put us on earth because He needed us correct? WRONG! But He did put us here for a reason: to praise Him for all eternity. He calls us as christians to go spread the word and witness to the ends of the earth. Just because we leave our homes doesn't mean He isn't still with us 24/7.

'Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind You shine Your light on me
'Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability
How refreshing to know You don't need me
How amazing to find that you want me
So I'll stand on Your Truth, and I'll fight with Your Strength
Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me
Lord, You give me strength to carry on your will. When I can't see clearly, you make light of it and show me what to do. I know that I can't live forever on my own; it's only by your power. I'm so happy you're a God that doesn't need help with anything and doesn't need to depend on me. How honored do I feel that you want me to say your name. You are the rock I am standing on. Only with you, can I fight against the storms until you come to conquer the earth, by the power of Christ in me.

If you ask me to run
And carry your light into foreign land
If you ask me to fight
Deliver your people from Satan's hand

I'll go, but I cannot go alone
'Cause I know I'm nothing on my own
But the power of Christ in me makes me strong
Makes me strong
If you ask me to leave the country for Your sake, I will go willingly. If you ask me to go witness to those possessed by Satan, I'll go for Your sake.

'Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind you shine Your light on me
'Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability
How refreshing to know You don't need me
How amazing to find that You want me
So I'll stand on Your Truth, and I'll fight with Your Strength
Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me

Lord, You give me strength to carry on your will. When I can't see clearly, you make light of it and show me what to do. I know that I can't live forever on my own; it's only by your power. I'm so happy you're a God that doesn't need help with anything and doesn't need to depend on me. How honored do I feel that you want me to say your name. You are the rock I am standing on. Only with you, can I fight against the storms until you come to conquer the earth, by the power of Christ in me.

To reach out with Your hands
To learn through Your eyes
To love with the love of a savior
To feel with Your heart
and to think with Your mind
I'd give my last breath for Your glory
I won't go faint, I will follow You all of my days and I will trust You. I would give my las breath of Your glory.

'Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind you shine Your light on me
'Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability
Lord, You give me strength to carry on your will. When I can't see clearly, you make light of it and show me what to do. I know that I can't live forever on my own; it's only by your power.

When I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind you shine Your light on me
'Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability
How refreshing to know You don't need me
How amazing to find that You want me
So I'll stand on Your Truth, and I'll fight with Your Strength
Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me
The power of Christ in me
The power of Christ in me

Lord, You give me strength to carry on your will. When I can't see clearly, you make light of it and show me what to do. I know that I can't live forever on my own; it's only by your power. I'm so happy you're a God that doesn't need help with anything and doesn't need to depend on me. How honored do I feel that you want me to say your name. You are the rock I am standing on. Only with you, can I fight against the storms until you come to conquer the earth, by the power of Christ in me.

Is this the same of you? All of these words are just words. They aren't of me. I wish I could do and fulfill all I just typed but this is what we are called to do.

LAMININ

Wow, that's all there is to say about this. Just wow. Laminin, it holds your body together and it's in

the shape of a cross. Didn't Jesus die on one of those? So wait, your telling me that there are

millions of crosses in your body or in every human body for that matter? Which means that when

God created man He did that. So His glory is still being shown today?

Now those questions were all very rhetorical. But, did it get you to thinking? It sure should have.

Month #1 at GBA

Wow, a year ago I wouldn't imagine myself anywhere but E.A. But I have definitely adjusted. I was a nervous wreck the day before school started. I felt as though I would throw up all of my nerves. After this month has just flown by, I realize that I was scared for nothing. Everyone was very kind and I have actually made a few friends which I'm very thankful for. I would have never thought that I would be this used to it by now.

The work is much harder than I am used to but I'll hopefully get the hang of it.

I just want to praise God for the opportunity to go to this school because now that I'm there, I don't ever want to go back to E.A.

I just want to thank everyone who has made me feel welcome at my new school and I'm looking forward to a great 3 years.

Having Regrets

It's a Thursday evening and I'm so bored, so what to blog about eh?

How about regretting what you do/what you didn't do!

We all have regrets sometime in our lives, some regrets are good and some are bad. What do you regret? Sometimes I find myself regret such stupid things like not eating a certain type of food when I have a choice, or being very ugly to a true friend. What about sin? Do we regret sinning as often as we should. I know of some cases that people regret sin in, pregnancy. That's a huge topic in the teen realm. We think we have it all. We can take care of ourselves so why not lose our virginity? Everyone else does. So when a girl turns up pregnant she often feels bad, but is it about sinning? Or about have to decide on what to do with it. By the way, ABORTION IS NOT THE ANSWER. But that's another subject for another time.

What about regretting being disobedient? Do we regret it for the right reason or for the wrong reason. I know I regret it because it prevents me from doing the things I love but I should regret only because I have let God down and it just disappoints Him more for me just to look Him over and not repent.

We always say things that we shouldn't say. (Which I have a huge problem with.) We say hurtful things to people who hurt us or just say hurtful things to be mean about it. That isn't the way to act is it? When you look at how Jesus came to die on the cross for OUR sins, He never said one harsh word. When He could have struck us down, He didn't. He had a choice whether to fulfill His prophecy for us or not, and He chose to.

One thing I regret often is not studying for a test. If I don't study I shouldn't expect to make the grade. We regret gifts that we receive.

What about our parents? Have you ever regretted having your parents? I know I have and that is such a foolish thing to do. How can someone regret their parents? There are certain cases that are different than others but just regretting your parents because they spank you or punish you makes you a fool. It is the second commandment to obey thy Father and thy Mother.

What are some things that your regret? Is it worth regretting or are you just being foolish?